I Am Back

I have figured out my password and will start writing again.

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Knife Fights; Another Long Night.

Words are bitter, and still you want my life?
Come hither and meet the night.

Jest with me and find a fight.
Take my joke too light, and meet my knife.

Cranky in the morning, but only after what I've seen.
Mourning without reason.

Kiss the grave and make your peace.
Wake up the dead and walk in pieces.

Stressed Out.
(Calmy at ease.)

When you're tired, if you're quiet.

That fox ran his heart out to that I swear, and by the moon I promise.

"But why the moon?"
"Why any star in the night's sky?"

I interject with a foul curse and ask her why she follows my hollowed path, or why she calls me her friend.
"I am a devil you hear!? A damned beast! You should kill me quickly or I will rip you apart woman, fore I am a machine! This android takes life after life, quenching my thirst on the innocent."
She then questions why only the innocent, and I respond with,
"They taste like the sweet candy I indulged on when I was young. Hah! When I was young."

I leave her that night in a city alley way. The concrete stained with fresh crimson. Suspect me you fragile humans. Your flesh is what I desire and I promise you it's nothing more. I will infect your brain and then end your worldly pain. If you see me walking your way you should avert your eyes and forget all about my embracing smile. I'll take what I want whether it be robbery or a gift. I say fear the night. I say fear the day. I am every where these days. I am your love. I am your friend. I am your mom. I am your dad. I feed on what I see fit, the last few weeks were like a a nightmare I must forget.

"I do not exist."
"I do not exist."
"Only you exist."

We end the night with a faint harp and a flute to carry us on our rotten way. I start again about my promise to the moon, and this time I can end my speech without interruption. We will burn, oh! We will burn! We will burn poor and lonely.

"Torches together, hand in hand."

One Request.

just please don't leave

Alone is no way to go.

Home alone is no way to go,
But low and behold,
A funeral at my toes,
No way around these bars,
No ship to travel to those stars,
Months of waiting,
My patience waining.
Home alone is the way for me,
Until your face I see,
Come bless my porch with your knees,
Lets pray for what we'll be,
This need is so deep seeded,
Could have been avoided if the rules we heeded,
I still say shank the rules,
Shake those blues,
Lets hop in my car,
We may not make it too far,
But together we'll be,
Against the world,
Just you and me!

Jay L. Hollaway
(You know)

What the Hell Happened?

Asking this as I turn to light my cigarette.
Indeed, what did happen?
One day everything was together and strong.
The next I find myself alone.
Time I once took for granted as you spoiled me with tenderness.
I find a crook pointing a proverbial gun at our relationship!
I need you back in my daily life.
Phone calls are not enough to live on.
Home is waiting warm and ready.
Ready for our love, ready for our family.
All the bad needs to be set aside while we bask in this feeling.
All the moments we missed need to be replaced with the lovecats kiss.
Needing, not wanting!
Life is too precious to waste, and ours is too fast paced for most.
I met you and fell down deep, and I can feel your heart beating!
Needing, not wanting!

Jay L. Hollaway
(For Shannon)